I don't know how much more I can take! It's just too much for me! Exams are coming up. If I fail, my chances of becoming a physicist will be significantly reduced. I simply cannot live without science. It is the only love of my life. I have sacrificed the idea of having a wife and children for physics! Sure, sure, I'm only fifteen bloody years old, but what does it matter?! Physics are more valuable to me than any wife or child could ever be! If I lose physics... I can't do the exams. I know I'll fail. I just know I will. I'm not good enough. What am I supposed to do? What am I going to do? It's just going to devastate me so much when I see the words... Failed. I can't do it, my friends. I can't. I want to give up now. I want to end it, I want peace! Why can't I have peace...? These waves of depression and euphoria! I can't... I just can't... I live in a virtual world, it is all which soothes my pain. I can't do it. Those four words, they devastate me. Why didn't I study from an earlier age... Why... I can't. I don't want to anymore.