Hello everyone. I joined this forum after a friend of mine from another mental health forum said that this is the better place to talk about depression and suicidal thoughts. These two subjects are taboo in where I live, and even among my online friends. "Laugh, and people will laugh with you; cry and you'll cry alone." That's what I experienced for the whole 20 years. People gathered around me when I was cheerful and happy, but when I wanted to talk about my problem no one listened. Even my own mother. So my only hope is finding compassion and understanding from forums like this. I hope I'm welcomed here.