I'm so weak. I'm too weak to do whats good for me and I'm to weak to end it all. I dont know what to do next. I'm just tired. Tired of pretenting to be a good person, because I'm not. Im a rotten sob. THere is no good in me at all. I fool others. I dont know how I manage it , but I do. I know in the end I wont be able to fool God. Actually I think everyone is catching on. THey know I'm crazy and f'n nuts.