I feel so alone. I feel like I don't have any friends who would listen me...but it's because the people I am actually friends with, well, they'd listen to me, but they wouldn't hear... Or I don't think they would, anyway... I have this bad habit of deciding what people are thinking and sticking with it, so that may be triggering it. That same bad habit is a lot of what is making me miserable. It is like my subconscious has full-reign over me and won't let me be happy...forces me to shove people away, and be confused, and unhappy, and disappointed, constantly... I need to start seeing a therapist again (I quit too soon), but I'm too phone shy and ashamed to call and schedule an appointment.