People tell me they envy my life and how I've traveled all over the world. I lived in Japan for 2 years teaching english I live in Istanbul, for 1 year teaching english But I have always been depressed and running away. I'm 26 years old now and have traveled all around southeast asia and other parts of the world. Wow, yeah sounds great. Except I have never had a girlfriend my whole life. I've never been in love. I have been suicidal since the age of 16. I see no point in going on, so I am going to Vietnam to teach again. Maybe I'll be lucky and die of disease. I also have to ride a motorbike in the city, so that will most likley kill me. Maybe I'll get AIDS since the only sexual relief I can get since I have no girlfriend is through a hooker. Well, that's how it's going to go down. Doomed forever to lonely wander this planet.