No matter what happens in my life, I'm just not happy. I cry all the time, the pain is just so severe and no1 understands. My mom tells me that its all gonna go away eventually, but I'm just beginning to think that it never will. I can't see myself ever being happy like I was during the early years of my childhood. Now idk what to do with myself, I just can't be happy no matter what I do I doubt I'll ever kill myself, even though its basicly the only thing that's ever on my mind. w/e, I'm just so lost. I ask god for help but he never answers, its like i'm talking to myself. There is no god, cuz if there was, he wouldn't be putting me through this when I don't deserve it. Why me and not some murderer or rapist or somebody??? It's just not even fair, I can't take this anymore.