I really, really, really want to end this shit. I know some of you are sick of hearing about suicide. But i have a mental illness, and then some stupid fucking bitch amanda, some dumb crystal meth addict, who i have done nothing but try and help, is a complete and total bitch to me. She stole all my shit to hawk for dope, i would love to kill her and then kill myself. Or just set the fat whore on fire. life didnt turn out well like i expected. ive thought heavily on suicide and am so broke at this point i dont even have enough money for a noose. and all these christians and mormons have some idea that im going to hell or some shit, which i also worry about. once i became mentally ill i completely quit believing in god. life is just unbearably shitty and i hurt twenty four seven. i have little friends, and would love death...... ive thought about alot of things. hanging, carbon monoxide, anything to just make the pain end.