I am new here. About a month ago I lost the hearing in my right ear. It rings constantly. It makes me feel weak, and sick all the time. Like I'm on a boat. I am singer, and I cant sing. I am a dancer, and I can't dance. I am bulimic, and have been for 2 years. I just reached 93lbs. I am happy, yet digusted that i am. Everyone thinks that its mostly my bulimia which has attributed to my hearing loss. I understand that it could be, but it could also beother things. Yet, they treat me like I am just doing it to myself. No one hugs me, as dumb as that sounds. No one tells me I'm going to rise above. I have always been really positive, and a strong girl. I have gone through a lot of loss. Loved ones, jobs, failed in a lot of aspects, that were above my control. and yet I still smile and stay positive, and I treat people well. and still I find myself alone. I am in recovery somewhat of my eating disorder, and I have made progress, but no one notices and just focuses on my mess ups. I am scared. I am scared of going on in life. In 2009 I was hospitalized for an attempted suicide. I guess..i just kinda wish it worked. But of course I dont I love my family, and I've found reasons to keep going and push forward. I'm just tired, and feel sick and weak.