im new here. i just

[xx-just-a-girl-xx]

keep having suicidal thoughts and feelings, i didnt no where else to go or what else to do. Everybody says it gets better and it doesnt seem too. its like my life is going nowhere, im jst failing. i feel like a failiure to everybody or not good enough. just a big dissapointment. Ive never been one to think about these kinds of things until this year. its just been awful one thing after another and each day i wait for it to be better but it never is. It doesnt take much for me to feel upset and suicidal anymore. i just find myself thinking i jst dont want to be here anymore, and wishing for it to be over. even after little silly things that dont really matter. but ive come to find that life is just hurt and pain and sadness. Its meant to be worth living. Im not scared of death, just scared of the mess i leave behind to the few people who do love me. thats the worst bit. but then i think if they loved me so much theyd want me to be at peace, and to finally be free.

 

[vbuk]

hey hun, welcome to sf. i hope you find the help and support you need here.

i am so very sorry you are going through a rough time at the moment. things do and will get better. this life - it has its ups and down - ask anyone here - but it is still worth living.

you can get through this hunny.

Take care and be safe and feel free to pm me if u need a chat

clare xxx

 

[Aaron]

Hiya....i can identify with your post,i feel the same way and have done for the past year....hang in there...sooner or later things have to get better.