Hi all, my name is Jaime, and yes, my mom spelled my name a weird way. However I like the way it is spelled because it makes me feel a little more unique. Like I said in the title I was referred here by a woman in my group therapy. I don't want to mention her name because I don't know what all she has shared with you all regarding her own life. She told me that people here has been a lot of support to her and helped keep her from harming herself. I thank all of you for that because without her in my group therapy I wouldn't have the courage to talk about my own issues. I guess I should tell you a little about myself. Well, I am a 17 year old female who was born in Iceland and in 2004 when I was 9, my mom and dad moved to America. Mom was born and raised in America and dad was raised in Iceland. They met in high school when my grandparents moved to America in the late 80s. Mom and dad fell in love and then moved to Iceland and the rest is history. What brings me to this forum is that I am scared of hurting myself. September last year I was abducted and rap@d. Since then between the legal issues with court and my emotional issues I have been fighting off the urge to take drastic measures to end my pain. Last year I even tried to kill myself after a really bad day at school that involved the half brother of the guy who assaulted me. I got really drunk and had my dad's "weapon" and was about to use it, but thankfully he and my sister came home and stopped me as I was squeezing the trigger. I have had dozens of days in which I thought about hurting myself. Anyway, I am getting way outside of what this thread is suppose to be for. I will save the rest for the right thread.