so I just made an account tonight because my undiagnosed depression is getting worse. I tried telling someone other than my parents for the first time today and she took it much better than my parents did and said she is here for me which is really nice compared to my parents reactions. I had been feeling better since spring and thought my problem was going away but then towards the end of the school year (finished grade eleven) it quickly returned. I had quit my job, started slacking in my studies again and had issues sleeping. I feel like since summer started it's gotten worse and I guess I've just been lonely with my dad working, my mom always working and living away. Both my best friends (until today for one of them) are completely unaware of my depression and have been pretty busy with their new boyfriends. I hate feeling like I need other people's help; i've always been independent and headstrong and stubborn and have spent a lot of time raising myself but it's just getting to be too much. I find myself constantly crying for no reason which I hate because I hate crying because I feel like it's weak. I've also been thinking about suicide a lot lately, especially tonight. I can't sleep, yet again, and I guess I was just looking for something, someone, I don't really know.