This is my situation: As a child, my mother, who suffered from depression, would often call me spoiled and worthless, and after being told that enough times, you certainly believe it yourself. When I was 11, i was molested and raped by my uncle who lived in the room next to me. This ended about 2 years later when he moved out. I didn't tell anyone what happend until 7 years later. When I was 12 I developed depressed and suicidal feelings, started cutting myself, and even made a haphhazard attempt at killing myself. When I was 14, a school counselor finally told my mom that she thought something was wrong. This made my mother extremely upset and just created general chaos. About a year later I was put into therapy and put on anti-depressants, mostly because I never opened up to the thereapist. I am currently off medications (my mom thinks the drugs are too dangerous) and out of therapy (my mom says its too expensive and i don't need it). Everyone thinks i'm better, but i'm not. I contemplate death all the time and I think i have started cutting again. I don't have anywhere else to go. Please help.