I'm 'new'
- Thread starter Patrick Gill
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This message is to all those kind people who responded so well to my initial post "I'm new"
I was overwhelmed by the insight of your replies and felt as though I'd found a resource that could help. Some of the replies were so 'heartfelt' and detailed that I felt compelled to reveal a lot more about my circumstances than I would have otherwise - at least to start off with.
Now, it's been over a week since the last reply and I feel as though I'm right back to 'square one'. I don't know what to do next. Is this normal?
I was overwhelmed by the insight of your replies and felt as though I'd found a resource that could help. Some of the replies were so 'heartfelt' and detailed that I felt compelled to reveal a lot more about my circumstances than I would have otherwise - at least to start off with.
Now, it's been over a week since the last reply and I feel as though I'm right back to 'square one'. I don't know what to do next. Is this normal?
i can only speak for my own experience. When i first came to SF i had no clue where to begin. It was like walking into a huge classroom in the middle of a semester where you know no one n everyone knows each other. i was welcomed fully... and felt it. After a bit i began to feel like a stranger again, and that cycle just continues. Some days i feel like i've been here my entire life... ok more like a couple yrs... and other days i feel like i just walked in the door and have no clue where to walk to even look. The mind plays some mean tricks on us for sure. When i find myself falling into that, i just type. i may or may not post what is typed, 85% of the time i delete it. But i have found that getting it out helps me now when it hadn't before.
Thanks for that Amber Marie. I do understand what you mean about writing and just getting your thoughts and feelings 'out'. It certainly helps a bit but what I really miss is having proper conversations. All those I once considered friends do not want to talk with me about my depression. They will go through the pleasantries like 'hope the depression is not too bad' but they'll go no further. Even those who have said they'd like to help me have never asked me how they should go about doing that. All I want is to talk to someone who is brave enough and cares enough to listen to me.
Thanks for your reply - Patrick.
Thanks for your reply - Patrick.
I believe it can be normal. The initial high. One thing that may be of help to you like with others is joining in on a variety of the subforums and threads. Although we do have great members and support sometimes a bit of just sharing and hearing some of the more entertaining things can boost spirits, like the what was for supper, showing pictures of pets, shows and music you like. Activities to share a bit of smiles about the better things going on. I am still exploring things here after 4 years, still learning. I was a member here over a year before I knew where to find the chat room portion. One of my DOH! Moments.
Welcome to the SF family @Patrick Gill
I did read your words. I know others have offered words of wisdom. I just wanted to send love and let you know you're welcome here and you're not alone.
I did read your words. I know others have offered words of wisdom. I just wanted to send love and let you know you're welcome here and you're not alone.
Thank you Innocent. I was very pleased to read your post , especially "I did read your words". I've just been reading some of your 'My Story' posts and was touched by the sentiments you expressed. You have an incredible mind and what seems like a special understanding of your strengths and weaknesses. Although the words 'fear' and 'scared' crop up in your writings, I see this as a positive sign because they are strong feelings rather than nothingness. The only thoughts I associate with life is continuing pain and sadness - and the notion of suicide provides me with a great source of comfort. The paragraph you quote beneath your posts is interesting - are they your words? The words "..I can.." seem to be the essence of it and such a positive mantra must surely be helpful. Unfortunately, when I read those words, I just feel 'cold' by the prospect of knowing that 'I can..' but I really don't want to. Thank you once more for reading my comments. Patrick.
They aren't my words.
What words help you? What words support you?
I feel like we're all made up of multiple parts and are going to want different things in different moments.
I've no idea what my story posts say, and thank you!
The thought of suicide is the thought of relief and the end of pain and nothingness.
What words help you? What words support you?
I feel like we're all made up of multiple parts and are going to want different things in different moments.
I've no idea what my story posts say, and thank you!
The thought of suicide is the thought of relief and the end of pain and nothingness.