i'm pretty desperate ... i've been very depressed for over a year and this past week put me over the edge - several love rejections, losing the opportunity for going for ECT treatments, out of work for almost 4 months after a bicycle accident, i just fired my therapist and i don't have prescription refills for one medication. i live alone, i don't feel that i will be hurting anyone. the only thing that is truly keeping me here are my pets - 2 dogs, 2 cats. it's not that their love is saving me, i just don't know what to do with them. if they weren't here, i'd be free to go. i practically resent them for it. i feel like i have tried everything medicine and psychiatry has to offer --- and i'm still here. at the moment, it feels worse than it ever has been.