It's weird. I used to be such a happy person, and I took such joy in my work. I'm 20 years old, currently a college student studying film, and I'm set to graduate in a year and a half. The depression didn't really set in until sometime in October, and since then my life took a complete nosedive. I started interacting with my friends less and less, my academics started to slide, and I just stopped being the happy, optomistic person that I used to be just a few months ago. I broke up with my girlfriend a month ago, and I've been pretty much on autopilot since then. How do I get myself out of this horrible downward spiral? It's so strange, I have absolutely no reason to be depressed, but bam, it sneaks up on me. I don't find joy anymore in the recreational activites that I used to do. Everything is just so black and hopeless. I just want to stop existing, it hurts so much especially considering that I used to be a much happier person just a few months ago. Now I feel worthless and alone. I have some possible reasons why I'm depressed, but I don't know if they caused my depression or was brought on by my depression. Career doubts, personal failures, the whole shebang. Bleh. I need someone to talk to. I know I can easily turn my life around if I just found personal happiness in myself again, but I have no idea how to do that. Everything I tried (work, exercise, hobbies) only helps temporarily.