I'm Not Going to Try Anymore

[Always Hopeless]

I'm sick of trying. I'm so angry but have no energy to express it because I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of all the stupid things that happen and the stupid people who do them.

I'm told to speak up, defend myself, if there's an issue say something so it can be handled. Their idea of "handling" is sweeping shit under the rug. There's no point in trying to do anything or be part of the world. There's no point in trying to do my job properly. The only way to tolerate this nonsense is to ignore things and let them happen. To just keep my mouth shut. Except, then people think you have no right to complain or be angry because you never brought this up as an issue.

I'm trying very hard not to quit yet. I'm trying very hard not to quit this week but it's very hard. They are pushing me. I want these stupid assholes out of my life. I couldn't care less about them. I hate them.

I'm sick of trying to be part of the world. I can't tolerate this anymore. I'll go back to being an antisocial recluse.

 

[johnDoen]

I'm sick of trying. I'm so angry but have no energy to express it because I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of all the stupid things that happen and the stupid people who do them.

I'm told to speak up, defend myself, if there's an issue say something so it can be handled. Their idea of "handling" is sweeping shit under the rug. There's no point in trying to do anything or be part of the world. There's no point in trying to do my job properly. The only way to tolerate this nonsense is to ignore things and let them happen. To just keep my mouth shut. Except, then people think you have no right to complain or be angry because you never brought this up as an issue.

I'm trying very hard not to quit yet. I'm trying very hard not to quit this week but it's very hard. They are pushing me. I want these stupid assholes out of my life. I couldn't care less about them. I hate them.

I'm sick of trying to be part of the world. I can't tolerate this anymore. I'll go back to being an antisocial recluse.

As a practical advice that you might not need to read nor take, please just quit that job. You deserve to be heard and treated in kindness and respect, and a "Great job, today. Keep up the good work." It would be better if you learn a craft, such as baking or making soap, and found a business on your own rather than being bossed around. Please ignore this if all you need is being listened.

I think no one has ever said this to you very often, so: Great job, today. Keep up the good work.
For now, take a break and a breath, you worked hard and that is enough.