...but that's okay. Because neither they, or you want to listen, but that's ok too. I know what I believe deep down, even if you don't. So I'm going to put on a happpy fucking face the next time I need help, just because you think you're the only one dealing with this. You think you're the only one? I've lost three you fucking idiot. You think you blame yourself? Try being around nine of them and ALL of them get taken away somehow soon afterwards. I can't fucking fake it anymore, you don't want to listen so why does anyone fucking else. Goodbye. I can't fake it for you all anymore.