I'm back. Work has just gotten really bad. I have projects that were due in October that have now been moved up an entire month and are now due in less than 2 weeks. Even October was going to be difficult. And I don't think anyone at work cares. I know they don't. I haven't had a single full day off in a month, while trying to get what I can done. I'm tired. I'm hungry. I can't stop crying. I don't have anyone in my real life who cares even a little. I don't even care anymore. I just want to die and have this pain go away. I've had my resume out for 2 days and have had a lot of contact, but even that's been overwhelming. Everyone wants me to come in to their office for 30 minutes, just to chat. Fuck, I don't have 30 minutes for every one of them, especially just to fucking chat. They won't even tell you about openings without that fucking chat. I hate IT recruiters. My birthday is next week and I just think the best birthday present I could give myself would be to end it. My life is going nowhere and no one cares how I'm feeling. No one would miss me. They say, don't kill yourself because people will miss you. Fuck, there isn't one person who will miss me. Oh, it will cause the people in your life pain. So? I hope it does. Fuck them. I went to a therapist to get some help, but in the second meeting he spent the entire time talking about himself. Asshole, I'm paying you to help me! I just don't care enough to keep fighting anymore. I have no energy.