Okay. my name is Katie.. my stepbrothers name is derek. he is only my stepbrother by my mom and her partner. we started a relationship sort of.. i really really liked him and i told him that.. let me start from beginning.. i pretended to fall asleep and he came in my room and passionatly kissed me.. that was my first kiss ever. and from there i told him i owed him a kiss from there. so i kissed him back.. longer this time.. and he touched me and fingered me and stuff.. and i gave him a hand job. and that went on for about a week.. we were caught. the following weekend. there was a hickey on my neck.. and our moms found out. from there he said he didnt like me anymore.. and then a week later he said he liked me again. and then we kept doing stuff.. and i wasnt really okay with it.. but i let him anyways.. and then he said that he loved me. and when we were old enough he wanted to marry me. and a couple weeks ago. he said he didnt love me anymore or even like me in that way. but he kept wanting to do stuff so i let him.. even though i didnt want to. i lied to him and told him it didnt bother me.. but lately its really been getting to me.. im scared of him.. i told him all my secrets... and when i refused to give him a blow job. he told my sister (who is 7) one of my secrets.. and im afraid that if i dont give him what he wants now.. then he will keep telling ppl my secrets. so for right now i have to keep doing things with him.. even though its killing the already dead me inside.. i think its better to have just one person upset than to have both of us upset right? so i will have to keep giving in to him.. and letting him use my body as his playtoy my secrets are too much to have other people know. i have confided with him about everything.. he knows i drink, si, am suicidal, and am bi... and i cant have others know that... i just cant..