I don't like thinking that I have an eating disorder, but I'm afraid I'm developing one. This year I lost 15 pounds, but it could be due to depression and a sudden increase in exercise. I don't like food, and it makes me sick when I have to sit with my family at dinner and I have to see and listen to them eat. I watch my weight like crazy, and I would rather drink a cup of coffee for lunch than eat something, and I drink at least 2 cups of coffee every morning, because I know that if I drink too much of it it makes me sick, and I feel like it will help me maintain the weight I'm at if I eat breakfast and dinner. I don't like to think about this being wrong, because I'm not really inducing losing my breakfast myself. I've struggled with self-esteem issues all my life. I've never had a boyfriend, and I've never had anyone interested. It's also hard to look at myself and be happy with what I see in an industry where perfection is important (I'm a Musical Theater major). I'm scared, but I love losing weight, and being able to see my ribs and my hip bones.