It's weird, you know. I'm not religious, I'm Agnostic. I've wanted to die for 5 years, sometimes the feeling escalates to where I'm ready to do it. Sometimes I get kind of happy, but the thought is always in the back of my head no matter how well my life is going. I'm too scared though, because I don't know for sure what will happen when I'm dead. I was raised in a very Christian family, and even though I don't really believe in the Christian afterlife now, the thought is still stuck there. Nobody believes that I really want to die though, because if I did, I wouldn't second guess it. I don't think that's true though, I think lots of people have a hard time making up their mind about dying. I don't really need advice, I just wanted to get that out.