In the U.S. we have Thanksgiving in November. My attitude this time of year is poor and unforgiving. We go to church every Wednsday before Thanksgiving. The problem is I am not thankful....for anything. I have been a Christian all my life and yet feel so hopeless. Somedays I wonder if God has a plan for me? I don't feel welcome at my own church and there isn't a college group. It goes from highschool to older singles. I just keep falling faster into a black hole. Death happens everyday, so why do people try to stop suicides? They can't stop people dying naturally or from car accidents or natural disasters. If people like myself want to commit sooner or later let them.