I keep doing things i shouldnt do, keep getting involved with people or matters that are not good for me, to an extent where i become so involved that Its more painful to walk away. Its Like im programmed to choose the difficult and painful paths, being romantic, educacional or chosing my friends. Everything i do eventually Hurts me. I can only have a few days of peace and real joy, just to be crashed with deception and endless pain. Pleeeeease let it be over once and for all. I cant bear so many years of this pain and solitud. Please let me disappear. Please take me away from this world where my existence is entertwined with sorrow.