I used to have this female-friend I had at school, I did some crazy stuff..like asking her out..kept on flirting....I know she got scared cuz I kept on staring at her..everyday..and I found this on a forum posted by her..I thought it was kinda funny but she took it seriously..damn..I got so suicidal cuz of a bunch of other stuff and told her I tried to kill myself, she said I'm crazy and all that..now I can't stop thinking about her..its been 3 year..or four..she's stuck in my head..I kept day dreaming of her..to cuddle up with her, cuz I got this thing for really short asian girls, they're so cute, I gota admit. It's really lame..cuz she never liked me..well I thought she liked me cuz she used to touch me on the shoulders all the time..and I took it the wrong way..yeah..thinking about a girl that never liked me..still thinking about her..I'm really obsessed..hmy:.. Everytime I bump into her or someone that looks like her from the distance..seriosly, I would get a panic attack. I would feel my heart racing in a matter of milliseconds, it really freaks me out.. GOD..I REALLY WANT TO TALK TO HER AGAIN She stopped talking to me cuz of all the freaky stuff I did, :sad:, cuz of what happened between me and her, now I don't talk to girls anymore..really. I'm scared that I'll get attached, and start doing freaky things that I think is normal, and they would all avoid me. I got SA, but when it comes to girls, its a different story, its like SA *infinity.. I wanna get her out of my head, but so far for 3 somewhat years it has not been very successful, I ended up thinking about how we used to talk (at school, ONLY), how warm and fuzzy I felt when I touched her hand in dance class (yeah..I'm such a stalker/creepy guy)..that was as close as I got to cuddling w/ her.. I've posted this on few other sites..and all ppl said was to get over it, and move on..or be more occupied so she won't be on my mind..well..that's what I've trying to do for the last couple years..and it hasn't been successful.. I don't want to end up in my 30s (if I get to live that long), and still obsessed..I don't want to feel like a total loser.. any other suggestions?