Something terrible has happened. Two nights ago the girl I love the most said I had nothing to worry about and that she wanted me for keeps. Well she's told me today she is now seeing somebody else! Turns out she loves us both the same except she didn't think we was going anywhere. She has realised how hurt I am and is telling me she loves me and wishes I was there with her. I've not slept or eaten anything in 40 hours. I'm so lonely and my depression has crept up on me and I'm half way through a box of pills. I'm not expecting to wake up when I do crash out. I fill all out at sea and nobody is going to rescue me
I've told a friend and she has gone to sleep thinking I'm gonna be awake and alive in the morning well I'm sorry but as you would of gathered this truly was last chance saloon for me. I trusted her and worshipped her. Like Paul Weller once wrote 'Don't matter what I do it doesn't matter do, I end up hurting!' I feel extremely sick now and I'm accepting my fate. I hope somebody discovers my poem on this forums and is able to take courage from it. I've been depressed for so long this is the last straw I can not be second best anymore. I used to be a funny guy, Larry David, Matthew Perry are my idols but I've lost my appetite for comedy now. Kings of Leon's Pyro, Coldplay's Violet Hill and Simply Red's Holding back the years helped me cope through tough times but I can't cope without friends or love. I've tried telling people I'm on my lowest ebb but they don't listen.
I'm a weak and soul less person. Sorry X
I've told a friend and she has gone to sleep thinking I'm gonna be awake and alive in the morning well I'm sorry but as you would of gathered this truly was last chance saloon for me. I trusted her and worshipped her. Like Paul Weller once wrote 'Don't matter what I do it doesn't matter do, I end up hurting!' I feel extremely sick now and I'm accepting my fate. I hope somebody discovers my poem on this forums and is able to take courage from it. I've been depressed for so long this is the last straw I can not be second best anymore. I used to be a funny guy, Larry David, Matthew Perry are my idols but I've lost my appetite for comedy now. Kings of Leon's Pyro, Coldplay's Violet Hill and Simply Red's Holding back the years helped me cope through tough times but I can't cope without friends or love. I've tried telling people I'm on my lowest ebb but they don't listen.
I'm a weak and soul less person. Sorry X