My life fell apart 8 years ago when my wife cheated on me and we divorced. I lost my home, family and the woman I loved. The pain of that event hasn't gone, I suppose I've just got used to it but sometimes I feel I only keep myself alive for the sake of my father and two children. The evening I tied the chord round my neck it was only the thought of the hurt I would cause them that prevented me from going through with it. My only hope now is that I can die in an accident or from natural causes. I'm surrounded by people but still crushed by loneliness.