i cant stand it anymore! its my birthday today and its gonna be crap!!! i am over crying my self to sleep at night i am over talking to people who think they can help i am over faking a smile just to please other people i am over feeling like crap and it aint getting any better! everyday i get a little worse and i cant seem to shake it! everything that everyone is doing to protect me from hurting my self is only makig the emotional pain 10x worse and making me hate them all 10x more.. im sorry guys but i need out.