i'm a failure at everything. i'm 20 years old and i don't have a job and i'm not going to college. i'm too stupid to go to college and i have really horrible social skills that i can't even get a job. i'm sitting at home doing nothing all day, but wasting my parent's money. i wish life was a lot easier, but it isn't. i don't try hard enough to make myself better or be happy. i don't deserve to be alive. i hate myself. if i'm dead, everything would be better for my parents. they wont have to worry about me, they can save more money on bills, and it's one less mouth to feed. i've already thought of a plan on how to die. i just never know when is the right time to do it.