im pathetic

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by shellz, Oct 6, 2006.

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  1. shellz

    shellz Guest

    i am ..i dont no why i live anymore..i try..but oh well. i have decided that i will kill myself..tired of life..tired of being this way..tired of it all. so i give up..i dont want to go on like this..im a pathetic human being..loser..loner..depressed..suicidal..freak..and the people that no me would be better off without me being there scruing up there lives...so that is it for me..the last straw..no hope..just empty feelings...that is if i feel at all...oh well...
     
  2. shellz

    shellz Guest

    fucking eh i hate being ignored all of the time
     
  3. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    There is so much pain and hopelessness in the world today, BUT no one is ignoring you..
    You will be welcomed here..
    Why do you feel so bad???
     
  4. bluekitten

    bluekitten Member

    Hey Shellz.

    I have no idea what to say. I think I'm too tired to say anything now, but I can't sleep - my thoughts just go around and around. I guess I just wanted you to know that, despite your loneliness, there was some random stranger sitting in his room, sipping a cup of cold coffee, and thinking of you, wondering where you are, what you look like, and how you're feeling inside, someone I'll probably never know.

    Are you really all those thing's you say?. You know, a pathetic 'loser'?. Maybe you are, I don't know. But I know that the blueprint we have in our minds of how we'd like to be never seems to live up to the reality. But thats okay. The possibility of change, and becoming closer to the person you dream of being exists for you the same as me, the same as all of us.

    Anyhow. Goodnight Shellz, I hope you feel better soon, a little at least. One thing's for sure, everything changes, and you'll find your happiness, sooner or later. It's might be a slow train, but it's coming.

    Take good care, please.

    Gabriel.
     
  5. shellz

    shellz Guest

    hi...im sorry but i think that i am going to in front of a train of drive me car off of a cliff or bridge or something like that...i hurt so bad...i hate doing this...i need someone to talk to...i hate being ignored...especially when i do finally start talking about how i feel...it really pisses me off...i dont no...sorry...
     
  6. MariaM

    MariaM Guest

    Hi!

    We are here now. Ready to listen.
    Share your thoughts. You will feel better.
     
  7. AWT

    AWT Member

    Shellz, are you still online?

    Do you want to talk about what's brought you to the brink? Everything gets so distorted when you're in crisis (I've been there), and maybe you could see a way to pull out of your situation..

    Hope you're OK,
    Andy
     
  8. shellz

    shellz Guest

    yes i am still here...even though i dont want to be at all
     
  9. MariaM

    MariaM Guest

    Shellz things can ´t be that bad. If i told about my life :rolleyes: even so i´m still here and somehow i still have hopes
     
  10. TheBLA

    TheBLA Well-Known Member

    Hey Shellz, sorry to see your feeling this way. I totally understand, since I'm in your same position, I feel extremely pathetic and inferior to everyone, I actually think I really am. :sad:
    Plus, I feel many times ignored as well.
    I will be honest and say that I may not be able to respond to you if you send me a message but thats because I'm also very depressed and suffering, not because I'm ignoring you, just want to let you know that okay? I don't know if both of us can make it, the world seems really cruel and everyone else is doing fine and dandy except for us huh? But at least we aren't alone....
     
  11. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    shellz I am sorry you feel so badly right now. What is going on hun? You are not ignored here, at least not intentionally if you feel you are. I am glad you posted and are willing to listen. Please continue to let us know how you are feeling. I am thinking of you. Take care and stay safe.
     
  12. mike308

    mike308 Well-Known Member

    I am glad you are still here.. You are not a pathetic losser. Please don't hurt yourself.
     
  13. shellz

    shellz Guest

    i am a pathetic loser..this hurts to much..i hate knowing that i can never be loved..my parents didnt even love me..i never asked for anything..at all...other than to be loved just like everyone else..but thats gone...no love..no life..no nothing..just this empty body sitting here..thats it...
     
  14. TheBLA

    TheBLA Well-Known Member

    I'm sorry you feel so bad, I'm really feeling like a pathetic loser as well. I've received a lot of love from my parents, maybe too much sometimes. But yet they also raised me wrong and I'm a very messed up, antisocial recluse as a 19 year old, whereas all the others are so damn outgoing and social, nobody like me spending all days indoors with videogames, computers, etc. :sad:

    I can sympathize with you and I hope you can keep hanging on and keep talking, I will listen for sure!! :smile:
     
  15. imagine all the other people in the world who feel exactly as you do right now, connect to them and imagine that through your own suffering you take on THEIR suffering, lifting it off of them and leaving them all with comfort and freedom. keep doing this all the time when you feel pathetic & suicidal

     
  16. Abacus21

    Abacus21 Staff Alumni

    :hug: Shellz - I'm sorry you're feeling so bad right now ....

    Hang in there :)

    Take care

    Joe
     
  17. shellz

    shellz Guest

    im trying i really am...i just dont no how much longer i can though..im just so close to doing it..idk...nevermind..
     
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