As you may have seen in another thread I made, I recently ended a long term relationship. Last night, I was feeling a little despondent about life, and decided to go out with some 'friends', in the hope of rasing my spirits. We went to a local bar and planned to go to a club afterwards. I seldom drink and have not touched alcohol for a couple of years (Just because I don't really like that the taste or the idea of being drunk), however, my friends could tell I was upset about the break-up and not really getting into the evening. They brought me a couple of beers and convinced me to have a few drinks to chill out, I was in no mood to argue. If you have read my other threads, you will also know I have bipolar, after downig a few drinks, I became increasingly manic. In the end I got quite drunk (I regret this deeply and resent myself for my poor self-discipline). I ended up 'getting with' this female friend of mine (she was drunk too), i'm worried about this too, I like her, as a friend, but i'm trying to get myself better right now, and I don't want things to get complicated unless i'm sure I have found the right girl. I'm concerned about hurting her feelings, she's a nice girl and doesn't deserve to be treated badly. I then rounded off this rather eventful evening by being very sick, probably due to the alcohol combining with the medication I am on and I now have a pretty bad hangover. I knew full well I would behave like this if I drank, I always do (another reason why I stopped drinking), but I still did it *facepalm*. I feel really bad about all this. I have some wonderful people around me and they deserve better, I deserve better. I wish I had more contol over my emotions at times.