I don't even know if I qualify as suicidal, so maybe it's completely pointless and/or unfair for me to even be here. I know that I think about suicide a lot but I'm almost certain I'll never actually go through with it. I want so much from life. As trite as it sounds, I feel like there's no one in the world that understands me. I feel so god damn lonely. I have people around me that I can talk to and hang out with, but it doesn't help anything because I don't feel like they "get it," if that even makes any sense. Even the very few people I count as friends don't "get it." What's worse is that I'm not even sure if I know what "it" is. The only way I can describe it is that I want to be able to listen to someone and I want that someone to listen to me. It's not a romantic or sexual thing. I don't care if the person is male or female. I want understanding. I'm desperate for it and it makes me feel pathetic. What the hell am I supposed to do?