Hi I'm Charlie 20 years old and had enough of this life. I just have nothing left in me to give. Ever since my girlfriend left me I have literally fallen apart. Not only was she so horrible about the whole thing but she spoke to me like crap when she left me. And that's what makes it even worse. The fact that she was so cold hearted to me makes my pain 100 times worse. Then all lost all my 'friends' they all folowed her and took her side. Even the people that were my friends that I made and never even hung out with her really! I've been stabbed in the back by so many people. So lonely I can't take it anymore. I just push everyone that tries to get to know me away. I don't mean to and I regret it after but I'm scared to trust anyone i guess. I quit college cause everytime I went in I ended up crying and going home. I feel like such a loser. I have no friends, no job nothing. I've taken a lot of paracetamol recently but had no affect so far just nausea. It's better if I'm dead. Pain gets worse everyday. Everyday I fuck up more and more, I push someone away or upset someone. No one needs someone like that around. So I'm going to take another overdose and a big one this time.