I'm so ready to end my life. I just feel like I should probably have my own place first to do so as not to leave my mom with all my stuff for her to have to do something with. I think I may feel a little less guilty that way too. But there's no way I could leave anytime soon. I know that I'm definitely a burden to her and I know that she will be okay with me dead. I'm afraid as to what will happen when she wants to move- I don't know if she would ever throw me out on the street or what. I already know I'm a no good nothing.