I'm so lonely. I'm a freshmen in college, and it's getting harder and harder to live without my parents and my big sister. She always brought me back when I was feeling down. I've tried to commit suicide before. <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods> I tried to breath in water and passed out, and I woke up an hour later. I still don't know how I lived through that. My roommate is in my group of friends, but she won't talk to me. I keep finding out about secrets she's keeping from me, and then when I ask her she tells me she thought I would get mad at her, but I've never gotten mad at her for anything. I don't know what I did to make her think that I was such an angry person. Last night, something set me off and I went walking around in the dark. I left at 10:15 and told her I was going to the basement. She told me she went to the basement, but when I was there, she didn't keep looking. I was gone until 12:45 and she never texted me or anything. Does she really care that little about what happens to me? I went across a bridge and kept thinking about how easy it would be for me to just jump off. I keep thinking things would be better if I had. I don't really know what I'm looking for in a response, I just needed to get all this pain out.