I'm really on the brink this is a Crisis I just acn't seem to get out of.

[ace]

I'm really struggling so badly all I feel is misery I try my best to do all sort's of thing's to feel better but it just doesn't happen.I'm trying to see if I can go away but even that is failing to inspire me,I take my med's and do my best to try and improve my way of thinking until I feel I can't get anywhere.I'm holding on so strong but the thought's of wanting to end it all are so strong.

I've told my Dr constantly that I'm having strong thought's of ending it I don't know if he think's I would act upon them.
All I seem to do is cry I've struggled to return back to work because my motivation is deserting me and the sadness is so strong.It's so hard I feel so lost the Ocd and Bdd are ever so strong also.I feel if this feeling doesn't change soon I'm screwed.:sad:

 

[GoldenPsych]

Have you looked in to counselling -

Do you have any idea of what is making you feel so bad?
xxx

 

[dazzle11215]

sometimes it takes a while to feel better. keep on doing the stuff that helps you (like exercise, or writing, or ....... you fill in the blank), then consider trying one or two new things, like art therapy, or a support group, massage, etc.
leave notes to youself everywhere... remind yourself that you are doing a GREAT job, that you are a survivor, and it is NOT time to give up. nope.

 

[gentlelady]

You need to find activities you can enjoy and do them. Maybe they don't seem appealing right now, but with the added activity you may start to feel better. Are you keeping your mind busy in tasks besides thinking about how bad things are and how much you want to leave? If you do not stay busy then you have time to think about things. You ruminate over them. It isn't on purpose, it just happens. Most of all ace, don't give in to these feelings. It is not hopeless. :hug:

 

[andyc68]

hi ace

i was going to say something but dazzle and gentlelady both said them so take note of what they have said.
having things to distract you from how life is treating you will always be a good thing, but also remember that sometimes you still have to live life itself and work will help with a feeling of belonging. don't see it as just something to do but more of a challenge.

but most of all be strong for yourself and stay safe

 

[ace]

You need to find activities you can enjoy and do them. Maybe they don't seem appealing right now, but with the added activity you may start to feel better. Are you keeping your mind busy in tasks besides thinking about how bad things are and how much you want to leave? If you do not stay busy then you have time to think about things. You ruminate over them. It isn't on purpose, it just happens. Most of all ace, don't give in to these feelings. It is not hopeless. :hug:

I am doing a fair bit like today went to the hairdresser's not that I could be bothered then went to the local shop's and later spoke to my cousin on the phone for a while.I then went to a friend's place and stayed with him for a while and then I went for a drive to a usual club sought of place so I could read the paper and have a coffee or drink with some people I know there.I just feel miserable all the time I get a slight buzz here and there but that's it.

I get thought's ever so often of wanting to end it I've been like this for a while and because of my Ocd and Bdd it get's even worse.I just don't know what to do anymore I lack that much motivation and I'm seriously considering leaving this world so soon.:sad: