I cant ocope anymore have been waiting for something to change in my life and have been waiting too long now ive tried to change it yet it doesnt happen so now i am off to kill myself. I dont know what to do about suicide note or what i should say i dont really have anyone close to me to leave it for. I will leave for a bridge in my local city in the ealry hours whne my local transport starts up again. I guess i came here for any last minute reprieve almost im so scared yet i know i cant keep living how i am and i dont know what to do im thinking of just running away and getting killed by cop. I hope i have the courage to just do it today.