First off, I'm sorry for your loss Lexi, not sure how the relationship between you two but a loss of a family member is a horrible time. Next, I'm sorry about the flare happening now, especially with the other factors going on too. Yo though, I know you probably don't want to feel as if you're burdening your mother, by throwing something else onto her but it's also important that YOU are getting the support that you need. I'm not sure how doctors and mental health services are doing it currently with COVID but are there any support systems you can reach out to, that can help you during this time too?
Last time we spoke properly, you've done so god damn well from where you've been, we want to help you and support you as much as we can. Remember, while there's going to be stumbling blocks in life, your mental health is the most important thing and if that means some things have to change to benefit your mental health, so be it, as that's the most important thing here.
It's nice to see your username around though and I hope this wobble can be rectified quickly.