Throughout this I'm going to sound like an idiot the entire time. Alright? Alright. I date on the internet because no one in real life will touch me because I'm disgusting. I cheated on Aaron (my boyfriend) twice.. well, a bunch with a guy on a site that i go on that I met last year after i fell head over heels in love. People say "yeah you can't fall in love on the internet" but I say different because you fall in love with someone's personality. They finally told me that they've been lying to me. Another one of those girls being guys. At least this one is sorry. Really, really sorry. And I'm hurt. Crushed. I cried from midnight until around nine in the morning. I haven't eaten in two days. Don't get me wrong, this isn't only over this. I've been a depressed wreck over the past four weeks, but this has pushed me over the edge. I feel like a goddamned zombie. I haven't eaten in two days. And then I find out that my boyfriend tried to commit suicide last night. Everything is just crashing in on me really, really hard. If I don't KILL myself, I at least want to just put myself in the hospital or at least self harm REALLY bad. :| And I'm scared to call a suicide hot line. I don't know what to do.