I've lived a crazy life, and now I think I've felt all that needs to be felt. I close my eyes when doing dangerous things, and I feel nothing. My bipolar disorder will never get better. I'm so done with this world. but i mean, suicide is not supposed to be an option... idk what to say. i can't feel anything real anymore. if people really want me to be happy, they'd let me die. i just don't know what to do anymore.