for a while now i've had the urge to cut. i feel like i can't though because my friends would eventually find out. the thing is, they never notice my scars, so i imagine they'd never notice the new cuts either. i'm also afraid they'll abandon me, because they only know me as the crazy fun girl who loves music and being loud, not the clinically depressed cutter who feels dead inside and wants to die. i want them to know, but i'm scared to tell them.