A few months ago I admitted to a friend that I loved her, she rejected me but was really kind about it and wants to preserve our friendship as it is. But everyday I love her more and it just won't go away, the only reason I get out of bed and go about my daily life is because I hope to see her. I can't stop thinking about her even though she's not interested and I think I've become obsessed. So now I'm trying to get a gun so I can kill myself before I become dangerous and do something bad to her. I don't know why I'm telling all you random people this though, I don't have any prospect of having a happy future, so why bother having one at all?