I feel that the decision to live or die is a great decision to make. And it should be yours regardless of how it affects anyone- It's your life. I don't feel like I chose to be here, not that I hadn't wanted to in the first place. I've become frustrated with this demanding state; it's much easier to watch things go by like they do in my dreams. And after seeing the movie "Waking Life," I've picked up a very valid point. Dreams are Dreams as long as they last, and you can say the same about life. The way that the world is today, all my dreams of singing and starting a family and fulfilling some things I'd like to see happen for the world are trickling down the pipes of the reality that I can't alone bend the universe to my will JUST so I can be happy. There are billions of people on this planet; a planet thats on the brink of destruction due to abuse and confusion. There is too much hate. I guess my point, is I don't understand why I have to participate on behalf of the human race, when it's blatantly obvious that it does not give a damn if I do either way....I don't feel that I'm being cynical, just objective. This world doesn't understand me and I don't understand it, though I'd really like to, I'm not going to force or fake understanding.