I'm so scared. I'm scared I'll never stop. I'm scared someone will find out. I don't know where this is coming from I just suddenly feel so scared! I wanna scream and cry. My chest hurts and I feel like I can't breathe but I know I can. I don't want to do this to myself anymore but I can't stop! I wanna go to sleep and never wake up! It's starting to storm outside. I hate storms. And I'm scared, but I don't know how to stop! I don't wanna go back to counseling because she keeps asking me questions and I don't know how long I'll be able to lie about it. If she finds out then they'll tell me I'm crazy and have me admitted or some shit! I'm so tired of this life. I wanna go back to the very first time I picked up that damn safety pin. I wanna go back and fix all the stupid things I've done! I don't wanna do this anymore. I've become afraid of myself!