my name's drew and i live in Ohio. ever since i was in the eighth grade i couldn't see myself making it to my 19th birthday. i don't know why, i just don't see myself doing anything. and lately i've been feeling as if i can't please anyone, i fail at almost anything i do. and the few things that i don't fail at, they feel like miniscule accomplishment because i don't see how they can help me better myself. i'm slowly beginning to think that i don't serve a purpose. and the reason why i'm scared is because like i said, i don't see myself making it to my 19th birthday, and i'm currently 18 and my birthday is less then a year away. i just don't know what to do. and what makes it even worse, all my friends are praised of their accomplishment and they brag about their accomplishments. and here's me, who doesn't have his license, who doesn't have a new car, who doesn't have a scholarship to 2 or more schools, who hasn't had a meaningful relationship of the 4 that i've had. i just don't know what to do and i'm becoming scared that i might do something that i'll regret.