I'm scared

[Deathly Strike]

I don't know whats wrong with me.

Everyday for the last two weeks something has gone wrong in my life. A week ago I lose someone close to me - not physically, but everything we had between us has gone. And this week there's the floods which are damaging my workplace, my street and, ultimately, my home. And today I get in argument with my parents. It just feels that I'm causing all this and I hate it so freakin' much. They still don't know I overdosed or that I have manic depression and now I'm not sure if they ever will know. I'm too scared of what will happen. I know what will happen - something bad, naturally, because thats how life goes for me. I seriously hate it so much. I'm the cause of everything bad in this life. Would the planet be better off without me? Yeah, I think so...

 

[see]

There seems to be a lot of stuff happening in your life and I can imagine how you could feel everything is your fault but you cant be responsible for the weather or how ppl react you have a right to be and say what you feel without feeling guilty about it. Cant think of anything to say that will make any sense or impact on how you feel just wanted to say you not alone even if it seems so,you not the cause of everything bad and the world would be at a loss if you were not around.

"Crisis sometimes comes along to aid us in our struggle"

 

[Deathly Strike]

It is my fault, though. The world turned sour the day I was born. I should have died at birth, and given some poor soul the chance to lead a life worth living and actually make something of it. I've screwed mine up beyond repair - at least some poor child would have made a decent attempt at being happy and making the world a better place. I'm too fat and too cursed to do that for anyone. I cause pain and misery everywhere I go.

 

[Deathly Strike]

Okay, so I can clearly see I'm getting the support and advice I need.

Jesus, its happening all over again. It's like everyone else on this forum matters except for me. I can only seem to give advice, but not recieve it. Time after time I've given help and support to those who really need it and I come to you in my time of need and I'm ignored. Cast aside like yesterdays news. Well, thanks guys, you really helped me out on this one. Oh, wait...hang on, is it just me or does this seem to be me causing more pain for you people? I'd say it is, honestly.

 

[Isa]

If you were causing pain for people how could you expect them to give you support?
Just in response to what you said ^


Anyway, what I actually replied to say is, often posts dont get replied to, this a forum full of vulnerable people and no one is more important than anyone else. People dont read upsetting posts when theyre upset, no matter who makes them, that would be inadvisable wouldnt it?

Its not about you, everyone on this forum has their problems, your not being ignored but you have to bear in mind that everyone else has things going on to to deal with not just you.