I'm not even sure how to take things anymore. I mean I want to be normal, I think I'm normal, but everyone is telling me something is wrong. My only best friend is moving to Houston, I broke up with my boyfriend of a year since he was getting way too physical and it was making me awkward. My mom puts me in dangerous situations whenever I visit her and my dad scares me. School sucks, I'm losing all my friends. I've had people say they hate me and I've been bullied and laughed at by complete strangers. Did I do something wrong? What did I do to anger all these people. Why do they mess with me or anyone else? What goes through their minds when they see us hurt? Cry? I'm slowly becoming weaker and I hate it. I use to be so happy, even in my rough childhood I use to smile for all my friends. I use to be the shield and sword protecting the ones I love. Now I can't even go out in public without breaking down. I have the urge to hurt myself all the time. I'm scaring my best friend. I have that feeling in the back of my throat to cry every second I'm awake. I just want it to go away.