You know... when you try and try to make your family happy and all you get is being yelled at and stuff in return.. it hurts. People tell me to be happy and smile, they tell me not to act all upset and sad. The thing is.. it's not an act. I'm not just being dramatic. Why won't you believe me? Why won't you stop paying attention to her and realize... you all treat me like crap. My own family. So yeah, i put on a fake smile and a fake facade... but it's getting harder and harder and i'm losing myself and you're losing me. But don't worry mom it's ok aslong as my sisters happy right? Well, i'm done. I'm already closing up. You know... it's funny... every test i've done... i've gotten extremely depressed.. thanks guys.. you guys are just the best family ever.. pfft.. i cant do this anymore. I'm up everynight 'til atleast 4am because i can't sleep and i can't stop crying. But then you tell me that i should go to bed early and not stay up so late. When are you gonna listen to me when i tell you i can't? When are you going to realize everything's not MY fault. I can't do this anymore. I just can't.