lately i've been feeling ugly and useless my dad is chronically ill and i'm one of the main caretakers it's just all so overwhelming and stressful to have to hear their aches and pains and fight over their own sadness when i'm sad too i used to be an artist i used to love to write and to sing and dance now i just feel like none of it matters. i'm a college student. i hate school. i hate how pointless it all feels. and today....i actually stared at a <Mod Edit, Methods> and staring at it as well... i think i'm too much of a coward to actually do anything but it did happen.