I live far away from my friends. I tend to make trips to see them. I often find myself alone on roads at night, and I've almost convinced myself to end it in an "accident." It has startled me how close I've gotten to hitting an oncoming car or semi-truck. I can even see myself going REALLY fast and just hitting a tree. It would hopefully be quick, but even if I live, it would be the farthest I've ever gone in an attempt. I think it might be how I go. And...it might end up being easier on my family. They wouldn't find me hanging in my room, or passed out on my floor from pills. They could pass it off as an accident. It could end up being easier on them that way. I just don't see myself living much longer. I'm unable to put the image in my head. I don't have a future. I can't live this way. I have to do something to end this before I go crazy. I'm sorry everyone if I sound dramatic, but it's starting to really dawn on me. This is the end.