I've been searching for anything GOOD in life for over a decade... nothing. Even if it IS decent or even somewhat enjoyable, it's not substantial. I have zero reason to live on. ZERO. Only positive thing about my life is I don't have children and don't intend on it; I could NEVER forgive myself for passing on my lazy, stupid, "bad attitude," artistic temperament to them and be forced to berate them for it (even if it's my fault because of genes) because "society says so." There's not one thing in this life that makes me happy. That's why I should be allowed to end it; not like this world lost a cancer cure or even a petroleum engineer.